Jamaica, Jamaica!!!

Jamaica is a beautiful place!! I went with two wonderful people, my best friend from childhood (in the fancy sunglasses) and our beautiful tall friend. We enjoyed the hotel and the local sites of Jamaica, Ocho Rios (to be more specifc.  We went to the town to visit some of the locals and we saw local art, bought a few trinkets, went to a market place with a meat market inside (didn't take pics of the meat market  -- it smelled really, not too nice inside the meat market).  Anyway, I hope to visit Jamaica real soon again. Maybe Negril next time!!! Such a wonderful place with great people and an interesting history!!! Loved it!!

Happy New Year!!! Waiting for that shit to get happy.... i guess only I can make it so...stay tuned for pics of my trip when I get back from Jamaica...can't wait...my first time out of the USA since I was twevle years old... Damn!!!! that was just waaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy too long ago!!!
Anywhy, until then homeslice!!

I need to get back into shape. Let's face it, as much as I'm annoyed by her ass, Jillian Michaels is right! You have to make yourself dedicated to working out at least 5 days per week for 30 minutes a day.  If you eating habits don't change, however, I'm just gonna keep blowin' up, and NOT in a good way. Every time I look in the mirror now, I'm asking myself the same question..."WTF happened to my body?! I used to have a nice little slim thing going on.  Look...you hit 40+ and the weight just gets harder to take off.  I have to push myself to hit that gym after work...no matter how drained I am after work. Work IS a drag...but it's work and it's just another part of what I have to do.

On another topic...I've learned to keep brief encounters behind me. When you've got something good, Ladies...just hold on to it.  Nobody's perfect...I'm not saying to settle for what you've got if the shit ain't working....but a good man is a good man. C'mon. I played myself, briefly trying to hold on to my youth (what's left of it). Sometimes a little young bastard is all that a person can be...that's what you get for not letting a little bastard grow or that's what older sistas get for f***** with little up ripened bastards who still need a chance to grow.  Unless you can deal that type of shit...it's best to leave it alone or stick with what you know best.  If you don't know what I'm taking about...then this message is only for the grown and sexy, who know what's up when you stray away and do stupid shit sometimes.  Don't do it unless you can handle NOT getting emotional about little selfish young bastards.  Take this advice seriously.  Time is just too precious and so is your f****** heart and mind.

Bye 'til next time.

Whoa!!! Been away for quite some time!!!

Wow!! How long has it been? I can NOT believe all that I've left on this spot for people to read. Okay...I'm not what you'd call your loyal blogger. I think it's nice to have this blog spot because I can just put some things on my mind in writing whenever I feel like it. It's exactly why my e spot has the title name that it does. Time just flies because life happens...there's really no big, big explanation for why I haven't posted in so long. Over the years, I discovered myspace, and FB and fell into the trap of posting pics and saying whatever, making comments, giving shout outs. It's all good. I don't hate social networking...it's still communication. This...this thing right here...the e spot...it's just a public diary...anywho, that's how I feel about it.

Let's see...the last time I wrote something up here, I was talking about how great I felt about leaving the job with the brown trucks. I STILL feel that way. However, I'm no longer in love with current place of employment, but what can a person do but be thankful to his almighty for providing us with what we need when what we want may not always be good for us. I don't think that there are too many folks out there with jobs that they can say they truly love. If such people exist, they don't exist where I work. EVeryone at my place of employment seems pretty much thankful to be even working because the job market just hasn't been great and it still doesn't seem to be getting any better. Life is just going on and we're all just doing what JAH is calling for us to do. I ask JAH everyday to please help me escape and just land that dream life, not that dream JOB. Happiness is NOT a good job, happiness is doing what you want to do, whenever you feel like and still having enough money left to pay your bills, travel, eat what you want, do a little yoga and just live your life. That's my definition. Don't know who out there feels the same way. I know I'm not the only one though.

My mom passed away on March 4, 2011 @ 7:45a.m. I was there with her in the hospice for three days and nights before I saw her take her final breaths. I will miss you so much MOM. We had our falling outs, out scream matches, our disagreements, our long conversations, our HUn and Dada, our trips to coney island, me and the different boyfriends over the years, her and her sometimes delusional thoughts about EVERYONE, including myself...we had alot. We had LOVE. I will miss her greatly...more than words can imagine. I still can't believe she's gone...that's life too. That's life too. New born, growth, maturity, old age, sickness, death. Death really sucks...but it's part of life. I'm gonna miss you so much MOM. I love you. You were the only person I could vent with over the phone with for hours at a time. I can't do that shit with nobody else but you, MOM. I love you and I know that as long as I live, until I take my last breath...you will live in my heart, all the rest of my life. May JAH keep you...and please, please give Dada a truly big hug for me up there...wherever you are. Love you MOM. Bless UP!!

Better Job, Better Opportunities

This is better. No more brown trucks. I'm so glad that I left that place. I feel better although I will be paying student loans until death...it's still all good. I actually like my new job...I still have to get past the newbie feeling, but now I'm actually home with my daughter more...I can cook more often for her, spend time, help her with her homework. That midnight shift crap is over. All praises to the Most High!! Bless Up and More Love!!

20th annual ancestors of the middle passage -- I missed it!

Damn!!! I missed the ancestors of the middle passage ceremony for this year (20th annual). I have to remember to keep in mind each year that the ceremony is always around the same time of the Puerto Rican Day parade (the day before, I think). Anyway, it's always on the same weekend as the PRDP. How I forgot that, I don't even know. So upset with myself because I could have taken some really nice pictures. Next year, Jah willing, I'll be there.

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year All!! Time for new beginnings. Just had another birthday. Not Old, just better, more understanding, working on tolerance and always remaining Thankful and humble to the divine, almighty, the creator, whatever you want to call our great wonder...the one we look up to in the sky for guidance. You know?

Listen. It's easy to listen, but you have to HEAR with everything else. Don't pretend to know everything because none of us really do. Every one is always saying, "yeah, yeah...I know, I know." In reality we don't know much, no matter how much shit you've memorized or learned in school. Everyday there's a new lesson to learn. Take the time out to listen to others because you never know what you might learn. The message today..."Shut the hell up and LISTEN!!! More Love and Many Blessings in the name of the most high.