Wow!! How long has it been? I can NOT believe all that I've left on this spot for people to read. Okay...I'm not what you'd call your loyal blogger. I think it's nice to have this blog spot because I can just put some things on my mind in writing whenever I feel like it. It's exactly why my e spot has the title name that it does. Time just flies because life happens...there's really no big, big explanation for why I haven't posted in so long. Over the years, I discovered myspace, and FB and fell into the trap of posting pics and saying whatever, making comments, giving shout outs. It's all good. I don't hate social networking...it's still communication. This...this thing right here...the e spot...it's just a public diary...anywho, that's how I feel about it.
Let's see...the last time I wrote something up here, I was talking about how great I felt about leaving the job with the brown trucks. I STILL feel that way. However, I'm no longer in love with current place of employment, but what can a person do but be thankful to his almighty for providing us with what we need when what we want may not always be good for us. I don't think that there are too many folks out there with jobs that they can say they truly love. If such people exist, they don't exist where I work. EVeryone at my place of employment seems pretty much thankful to be even working because the job market just hasn't been great and it still doesn't seem to be getting any better. Life is just going on and we're all just doing what JAH is calling for us to do. I ask JAH everyday to please help me escape and just land that dream life, not that dream JOB. Happiness is NOT a good job, happiness is doing what you want to do, whenever you feel like and still having enough money left to pay your bills, travel, eat what you want, do a little yoga and just live your life. That's my definition. Don't know who out there feels the same way. I know I'm not the only one though.
My mom passed away on March 4, 2011 @ 7:45a.m. I was there with her in the hospice for three days and nights before I saw her take her final breaths. I will miss you so much MOM. We had our falling outs, out scream matches, our disagreements, our long conversations, our HUn and Dada, our trips to coney island, me and the different boyfriends over the years, her and her sometimes delusional thoughts about EVERYONE, including myself...we had alot. We had LOVE. I will miss her greatly...more than words can imagine. I still can't believe she's gone...that's life too. That's life too. New born, growth, maturity, old age, sickness, death. Death really sucks...but it's part of life. I'm gonna miss you so much MOM. I love you. You were the only person I could vent with over the phone with for hours at a time. I can't do that shit with nobody else but you, MOM. I love you and I know that as long as I live, until I take my last breath...you will live in my heart, all the rest of my life. May JAH keep you...and please, please give Dada a truly big hug for me up there...wherever you are. Love you MOM. Bless UP!!
