Update

Does anybody read this stuff? I guess I don't have many interesting things going on right now. I'm back in school again. That may be a mistake. I just don't know about perserverance anymore. I'm tired, and that job has me so worn out. All I want to do when I get home is kick back. I still haven't gone to a day spa. I'd love to get a microdermabrasion facial, get my eyebrows threaded, and a total body massage. My neck is killing me!! I'm feeling better about the Youssouf situation. He called me a few week ago from a private number. A private number!! I don't know what he expected me to say to him. I told him go straight to hell!!

I don't need that headache anymore.

'Zup?

Still hurtin'. Although, I'm feeling a bit better. Time just has to keep moving on for the pain to disappear. It's cool though. He's gone, I guess he got his green card by now. I spoke to a lawyer who gave me a free consultation over the phone and he told me that my husband, well ex-husband has probably already filed for a divorce from me without my knowledge in perhaps, another state. I didn't know that someone could do that. Anyway, Thank you,
Youssouf Sangare. Thank you for reminding me that my life will be better w/o you and I hope that God will open your eyes to help you understand that it's not all about you. Remember this though, "What Goes Around, Comes Around". Jah Bless.

Christmas

Christmas is a time of year for joy and expressions of joy. My husband left me, I'm trying to get over him. One day at a time.

I guess deep down, I knew he was going to leave me because he never really seemed to act interested anymore. He always seemed bored or just plain disgusted with me. I wish that I could have read his thoughts. Anyway, let me just stop the crying and keep trying to move on.

The new year is up in a few days. Let's see what you've got. A new bag of hope, I hope. A new bag of unconditional love, maybe.

a new position

I told you I'd be back!!! Do you care? Maybe not, but that's cool. I was just sitting here thinking about rocking this crown. I've rocked it to an interview at a position for a make-up clerk with estee lauder (the most non-loc wearing place a sistah like me could work). Anyway, I was bright and shiny, I had on a black suit, professional to the m************ tee!! Hey, it's my crown. I felt like wearing it to the interview and so I did. I'm not going to blame the hair style on my reason for not getting the position, but I honestly don't want to sell estee lauder and the interviewer probably sensed that.

I still don't think estee lauder is ready for such nappy crowns though. It's cool though. They probably did me a huge favor.

That's all I feel like talking about today. Why? That's all I have to say, that's why? I'll holla soon. Peace.

what up?

What's up? I'm mel of NYC. I don't really have much to talk about. Well, maybe I do. Why? Because I feel like it. That's why. I have to say that reading a fellow members posts have encouraged me to start writing my own blog as of today just to say some things that have been on my heart for a bit.

Have you heard of A Humble life of a dread a.k.a. rastai blog spot? That guy is just too cool. I like to read some of his posts because sometimes he's right on the money with his thoughts about life, being a "dread". Just about being who he is. OK. So what? I'm a fan. Coolness that is genuine is just that. Genuine feelings are so scarce these days.

I have to get off of the topic for a minute. Or maybe not. I was just reading a post that the aforementioned fellow put up on December 8. He was talking about people who wear dreads for all different types of reasons. He made some good points about why people claim to keep their dreads neat for work of whatever.

It has never been about style for me. I agree with him in saying that I don't want to be associated with some or a certain form of element who wears "dread" for style either. i.e. Little Wayne the rapper. He might just be wearing his "dreads" for style. That's ok for Lil Wayne the rapper, but listen to what he raps about and understand why I don't wear my hair like this because "lil wayne has his hair like this", hell no!!

It's more of an africentric thing for me. I just work with what the creator gave me. I'm just appreciating creation's naturalness, ya' feel me?

I would get more in depth with this but not today. Why? Because I don't feel like it right now.

I'll be back.